PLEASE PRAY!!!

My VERY good friend Amy and her husband Brant Davis are expecting a beautiful baby girl (Addison). Amy was scheduled for a C-Section on April 23, 2008. During the night last night she started having contractions and has dialated. The hospital did an ultrasound this morning and Addison weighs 2lbs 3ozs. They are giving Amy steroid shots to try and make Addison's lungs as healthy as possible. Please pray for this young family, there 10 yr old daughter Abbey, 6 yr old son Brandon and unborn baby girl Addison. We all know the Lord works wonders and he is a mighty and powerful God and capable of anything.

Matthew 18:20 says " For where two or three are gathered together in My name, I am there in the midst of them."

Chole

Do you ever feel......

like you just spinning. I have had so much going on this wk and last wk. I have a HazMat Tech class i am taking for the next 2 wks every night including Saturday from 6 pm - 11pm. talk about tired. Then to add to it my Medical Assisting license is about to expire so i have been wroking on renewing it by taking self study courses. Ughh. I had to take off work yesterday just to finish the test's. Amongst all this stress i just knew i was going to gain from Monday but i havent thank God! I havent had time to exercise or really get my water in. But im down to *84.4 this morning.

Finally below *85. Makes me feel like i have accomplished something. Thats down a total of 17 pounds since Christmas. Now if i can just continue to lose and keep it off. I think the maintaining the weight loss is the hardest part. I know i can eat one thing wrong and i yo yo up and down on my weight. I ate some red beans and rice one night last week and the next morning i had gained 2 pounds. I was like OMG how can i gain 2 by eating 1/2 small bowl of red beans. But i did. Last night i had 2 slices of cheese pizza and i just knew i was going to weigh this morning and have gained but i didnt.

I hope you all did well with the weigh in. I cant wait to have time to read every one's blog's from this week.
Chole

Weigh-In #3

Well I am down 2 more #'s. I'm excited because this is the first time i have ever been able to accomplish weight loss. For so many years i have tried diet after diet to get the weight off and i just cant do it. But not now. I am so glad i have the wonderful support system i do. All of ya'll on this challenge have helped me so very much. I know for a fact with out ya'll i would not have lost the weight i have.

I can remember before my wedding in 2005 i joined weight watchers hoping to shed some pounds before the big day. Well when i joined i was heavy but not as heavy as i am now. December 2007 i was the heaviest i have EVER been. Today January 2008 i am between what i was in 2005 and Christmas 2007. I am so close to being the weight i was before i got married. It's actually kinda weird how every time i want to cheat i think about having to blog about it. I dont want to have to blog about a gain or cheating or giving in to a temptation. I like blogging about positive things. Hopefully this time next Monday i can weigh in under an *85. I would love that.

I hope and pray all of you did well this week. I did ok. I really should have exercised more, but thats where this week comes into play i can improve for next week.
Love to all
Chole

The "I LOVE ME" list........

Ok so i was reading Krissie's blog and i saw THE LIST! I am one of those people whom have been down on thereselves. i have just been so bumed because i just cant shake the weight this week. I have been so disapointed because i feel like i have so many people to not let down.

By the way i looked up the sopapilla thing i ate yesterday.........1290 calories just for the 3" piece of bread with some sugar and honey on it! Never again will i venture into sopapila land.

So here goes nothing let me see if i can be positive about myself.

1. What do you absolutely love about your body?
I have very pretty eyes i think, and beautiful thick hair, oh and big boobies....thats always a plus!

2. When did you surprise yourself with your physical strength?
Playing softball for the church couple of years ago. I have actually been asked to play this year!

3. When were you braver than you ever thought you could be?
When i moved out and got my own place. I am so afraid of every noise the house makes but i just tell myself God will protect me.

4. When did your self-control blow you away?
When a girl i work with tried to get me to eat a brownie (probably would have been better than the sopapila), and when my husband and i went to a steak house i wanted a baked potato and instead i got steamed veggies.

5. What is your proudest moment ever?
The day i married my best friend. I didnt think we would ever get married and i was so excited to get to spend the rest of my life with him. It's amazing how you can love someone so much.

6. When was the last time you felt absolutely beautiful?
Ummm. My wedding day, and that was 3 years ago almost. I felt like a princess. It was scary to have all eyes on you, but i felt like i was beautiful and everyone was just in awe at how well i cleaned up!

7. Why do you deserve to meet your goals?
Because i dont deserve to be unhealthy. I want to be able to go outside with my kids one day and take a walk or run around a playground chasing them. I dont want to be like my mom and be so overweight i cant do anything with my kids. But the difference in her and i is im going to do everything in my power to change the way i am living so that i dont turn out like that. I want to be able to put on a swim suit and go to the beach and not be afraid of people looking at me. I want them to look at me because i look good. I want to be comfortable with my husband touching me and not worry about him touching me and being grossed out by my weight. I deserve to be a healthy beautiful woman just like all my blogger friends do.

Thanks for asking these questions Krissie. Just in answering the questions i have realized why i need and want this so bad. I dont know what i would do without all of your support.
Chole

Why do i always do this........

it never fails i always disapoint myself. We had lunch brought in today from a Mexican restraunt at work. Well i thought i did good eating just lettuce, cheese, salsa, beef strips, some rice, guacamole, a a small bit of sour cream.............well i after i ate i went and got me a sopapilla ya know the little braed thing with honey on it and butter. OMG i am so mad at myself. I wish i could take it back now. I should have thought about it for a split second longer and i could have talked myself out of it.

Now i know i will get on the scale and have gained.

Just call me Cinderella!

Guess what?????????? I just got the news from my Office Manager that......................................................................i can take off in May and go to DISNEY!!!!!!!!! Yeah. I am so excited. My sister invited me on her family vacation with her and her husband and children. We will spend 3 days at Universal Studios and 1 day at Magic Kingdom. I can not wait. Plus i will be atleast 50lb's lighter by then I HOPE!! Well let me just be realistic if i could be down by then i would be extatic. Makes me want to try even harderto lose this weight. Oh i am so excited. I feel bad i will be leaving my husband for that long but he isnt into the theme park thing. Me on the other hand oh baby bring it on. I love it. We will leave on the 21st and come home on the 26th.

My sister has been losing weight also and she has lost like 10 pounds already. She said she just doesnt want to have to ask for a belt extender for the rides. Me either!!
Tonight is my WW weigh in. Hope everyone is doing ok so far this week. Good luck to all.

Chole

Weigh in #2

Well today is the official 2nd weigh in for the Easter Challenge. I hope all of you did well. Im shocked at the weight loss i have had during these past 2wks but i am happy as well. Thank you so much for your encouragements. It means so much to know i have people supporting me as i am supporting them and we are all so far apart.

Well for the big news......................scale said.............................good stuff!!!!!!!! Yahoo. I am so excited. I was a little discouraged because i know i could have made some better choices this weekend and my loss would have been more. Oh Well gotta save some excitement for next week huh? I promised myself i would not go back above 290!

Keep up the good work girls and i will post more later.
Chole