A fresh start...

OK so i haven't been doing so well with my weight loss. I started off really well with the Easter Challenge thing (thanks girls!) then i went down hill :( Grandma got sick and was put in the hospital in February and then she passed away and during that time i missed several WW meetings. So i didn't go back knowing i would have to pay a whole new joining fee and i didn't have the money for that. So i kept going with the Easter Challenge i wasn't losing as much as when i was going to WW but that was OK i figured the slower it comes off the longer i keep it off. Well then the Easter Challenge kinda CLOSED and that was BAD for me! It helped so much having people email me and leave comments and keep me encouraged. I don't even have my best friend here where i live that will keep encouraging me because she cant stay on the wagon!

Needless to say i stopped losing. Then in March i went to Orlando for a week with my bis sis Melanie and i didn't do to awful bad i didn't gain any weight i just didn't lose, but as time went on i started creeping back into my old eating habits and then i started gaining back. In the beginning when i started this blog and the Easter Challenge from the time it ended and i started gaining i had lost a total of 26pounds which was awesome! I have never lost that much weight.

Let me rewind back to October when i went to see my OBGYN. I was way larger than i have ever been. I asked her about if she thought when Scott and I where ready to start trying to have children if i was OK as far as healthy. Well she said, "Nichole there is no way at the weight you are now you will get pregnant and if you do it will not be easy getting pregnant nor will it be a healthy pregnancy." So that afternoon on the way home i was crying thinking my worst fear was going to come true i would never be able to have children because I'm so overweight and there is no way i can lose it. I thought and cryed and cryed some more then i remembered the WW meet in Richland at the Methodist Church on Tuesday nights and it was Tuesday night. So i pulled in to that church and marched in to sign up! I was so excited and there was 2 other girls there that were overweight and wanted to lose weight so they could try and get pregnant so i had someone who could relate to me! I have never had that. I have some of the worlds greatest friends but I'm the Fat Friend. I'm the one that they feel sorry for and don't want to invite swimming or laying out because i might feel out of place me being so large. I'm the girl that takes up the most room and others have to sit in my lap when we try and all go out and fit in the same car. I'm the friend that my husband cant pick me up and twirl me around because I'm so big. I'm the friend that cant borrow clothes because they would never fit!

So i dropped WW, The Easter Challenge was dropped, and i was left to start gaining weight so i did. I didn't gain back all the weight i had lost but i gained all but 8 pounds. My middle sis Amanda called me Monday and told me about this TOTALLY FREE site called sparkpeople.com. She said she had signed up and wanted me to check it out so i did. And i signed up as well. It has so many great tools to help you. Well since i signed up Monday i have lost 8.6lbs!!! Yea for me. I don't know what it is but the encouragement you get from people you don't even know telling you, you can do this is so wonderful.

So this brings me to the FRESH START! I want to lose X amount of weight by my 26th Bday 5/27/09. It is a large amount but i CAN and WILL do it. I might not have my friends as great encourager's but i have my online buddies and my sister Amanda. Ill keep you posted on my progress.

Love Chole