The "I LOVE ME" list........

Ok so i was reading Krissie's blog and i saw THE LIST! I am one of those people whom have been down on thereselves. i have just been so bumed because i just cant shake the weight this week. I have been so disapointed because i feel like i have so many people to not let down.

By the way i looked up the sopapilla thing i ate yesterday.........1290 calories just for the 3" piece of bread with some sugar and honey on it! Never again will i venture into sopapila land.

So here goes nothing let me see if i can be positive about myself.

1. What do you absolutely love about your body?
I have very pretty eyes i think, and beautiful thick hair, oh and big boobies....thats always a plus!

2. When did you surprise yourself with your physical strength?
Playing softball for the church couple of years ago. I have actually been asked to play this year!

3. When were you braver than you ever thought you could be?
When i moved out and got my own place. I am so afraid of every noise the house makes but i just tell myself God will protect me.

4. When did your self-control blow you away?
When a girl i work with tried to get me to eat a brownie (probably would have been better than the sopapila), and when my husband and i went to a steak house i wanted a baked potato and instead i got steamed veggies.

5. What is your proudest moment ever?
The day i married my best friend. I didnt think we would ever get married and i was so excited to get to spend the rest of my life with him. It's amazing how you can love someone so much.

6. When was the last time you felt absolutely beautiful?
Ummm. My wedding day, and that was 3 years ago almost. I felt like a princess. It was scary to have all eyes on you, but i felt like i was beautiful and everyone was just in awe at how well i cleaned up!

7. Why do you deserve to meet your goals?
Because i dont deserve to be unhealthy. I want to be able to go outside with my kids one day and take a walk or run around a playground chasing them. I dont want to be like my mom and be so overweight i cant do anything with my kids. But the difference in her and i is im going to do everything in my power to change the way i am living so that i dont turn out like that. I want to be able to put on a swim suit and go to the beach and not be afraid of people looking at me. I want them to look at me because i look good. I want to be comfortable with my husband touching me and not worry about him touching me and being grossed out by my weight. I deserve to be a healthy beautiful woman just like all my blogger friends do.

Thanks for asking these questions Krissie. Just in answering the questions i have realized why i need and want this so bad. I dont know what i would do without all of your support.
Chole